i just cant explain what i feel. or how i can express my feelings.

a good friend of mine had an accident. a very tragic car accident. we arrived home first, i was begging to go home early because i have to work in the morning. they were behind, and just like that they're gone. THEY'RE GONE. last night were our first kisses and hugs, and it was the last time too.

is it my fault?

al-fatihah.

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both of our friends, arwah abed and arwah kecik were buried in sban on saturday evening. anything that you read in enwspaper is only 60% true. its suprising that how reporters can lies in the newspaper, how they spelt the person's name wrong, how the photographers seems doesnt care and saying "we're just doing our job". I FEEL THAT I DONT TRUST THE MEDIA ANYMORE. they just seems to make up a bigger story to make it interesting. and the car accident is not some drama show, its not just the car but MY FRIENDS WERE IN IT. how can they just put it in the news paper with the clear picture just like that? dont they think that they're going to offended the family and friends? and for some people who either blaming the driver our us, i just want to say one thing, YOU WERENT THERE, SO YOU WOULDNT KNOW THE REAL STORY SO DONT MAKE UP MORE STORIES. there were questions were asked this and that.. only we know and we intend to keep it to ourself.

me and friends still in trauma, seeing them hanging in the car, waiting to be taken out to the hospital is a nightmare. we were the last group just hang out with them. but still, ajal ditangan tuhan. hopefully both arwah aman disisi tuhan.

i couldnt imagine if its one my group, my housemate that i meet everyday. i could have fainted...

thank you for all your support. im doing a bit okay now, still in recover.. hopefully ill be okay (:

halo halo halo. how am i doing? so far so good lah. im now living in pelangi damansara. ok lah, near to the curve / ou area. but im mostly at home playing housewife har har har. i got a new job! it's in TTDI, that's like 10 minutes from here. so yeah, dekat je kan than cyberjaya. i think the momment when i left ocbc i was sooooooo relieved because i dont have to wake up at least 1 and a half hour early just to go to work! and i even dont have to live in bukit jalil again hurm hurmmm... the work is good, they pay good, the people is good. so im one happy woman lah right now : D

so now im living with other 2 girls in the house, intan and q-cie. they are my closest friends now. and also with other 5 boys huhuhuhuhuhu. its kinda hectic but its all good. so yeah. ive moved on with bad since last year. he's been nice to me so im kinda lucky. and friends, yeah.. they always around.

i lost my addiction on handbags like 2 3 months ago. im more like, buying shoes every friday. it's terrible addict. and foods. yeah, foods. i cook a lot more these days. just the basic things macam nasi, sardin, telur and some other stuff. the boys keep calling me mom. haih. and i like to keep the house tidy. so selalu membebel, kinda annoying yeah..

i dont have internet connection at home, yet. so yeah, bohsan giler. may be next month, hopefully. alright. suddenly no mood to update.

bye.

hey guys.

im selling my baby phat arm charmer handbag in vanilla. im selling it around rm 300? its nego ; )

do let me know ASAP if you're interested wokie?

happy new year 2008!!!

I WANT HAFIZ TO WIN BECAUSE HE'S SUCH A SWEETIE PIE!

he wears VS.

HE!!!!

2 bottles of pure seduction and love spell.

i love you baby!

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MESSAGE 79
i told you yang you ni lain dr yang lain.. hee..
from: syed muizz
2:40am 13/7/06

MESSAGE 78
how come u tau i just finished the movie eh?
from: syed muizz
2:33am 13/7/06

oh oh ohhhhhhh sometimes i think he's too good to be true! and sometimes i think he's just like other guys who like to use those sweet sweet words you know? so cant be trusted! but we'll see about this guy ;)
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MESSAGE 64
i nak gi tgk pirate of carribean pas ni.. ur store ada prob? gado dgn sapa? oh ke tgh bz posing? cepat ckp!
from: syed muizz
11:30pm 12/7/06

MESSAGE 56
sure.. no problemo pumpkin.. finish work?
from: syed muizz
11:03pm 12/7/06

MESSAGE 35
eh dh dinner? tgh break eh? im having seafood with my friends kat danga bay.. nk?
from: syed muizz
9:35pm 12/7/06

MESSAGE 23
oh nanti bila i online ill msg u k.. we chat again k.. happy working pumpkin..
from: syed muizz
5:45 pm 12/7/06


pumpkin? how cute hehehehehehe :D

mizzmarique: hows gf
muizz cute: famous juga ah taman u ni..
muizz cute: hehehe
muizz cute: gf?
mizzmarique: ya girlfriend
mizzmarique: ke u single
muizz cute: currently single mingle..
mizzmarique: ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
mizzmarique: thats a good news
mizzmarique: hehe
muizz cute: baru jer single after long term relationship..
muizz cute: keep this a secret
mizzmarique: ohhhhhhh
mizzmarique: will do
muizz cute: kalo org lain tahu..
muizz cute: i noe who to find
mizzmarique: i la?
mizzmarique: hahaha


he's freaking SINGLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ive been eyeing for him for months. when he came to my store for district meeting i was just stumped. i wasnt sure that if its really him. but then he looked at me, and i look at him. it was like, thats it man.


we didnt talk a lot. all i said is, "kim salam kat jas eh, i miss him." he said ok. THATS IT. and i thought thats probably the last time im going to meet or ever talk to him. so i was like, ok. he is just another cute guy i have a crush on.

but you know, good things happen when you least expected it to be.

he asked my number from my manager (i didnt know at first). and he finally msg me from myspace. we ended up chatting at ym. but of course la i jual mahal hahaha but a girl have to do what a girl have to do right?

muizz cute: dunt run..
muizz cute: nnt licin jatuh
muizz cute: hehehe

awwww awwwww




so YES, im going to meet him again at the ambassador cup on the 20th. i know there'll be plenty of CIOs but my eye will always be on him hahaha so corny ok? hehe :P